Today I'm trying an experiment... I'm not feeling up to much today, so I'm temporarily setting-aside world domination and just pottering (online and offline).
I don't know why I'm feeling like this today, I've just had a week off, so I expected to feel all re-charged, but I'm not. So I was wondering what would happen if I treated today's post like journalling, if I went all stream-of-consciousness...
Hmmm now what's up with me today, surely I'm usually energetic and keen to get going... I love what I do... I'm keen to get on... so what's up today? ... Well, I guess I feel a bit fed-up with the weekend - didn't get much time with the fiancée and yesterday had a long conversation with a friend who's suffering and that was a bit tiring even though I did want to be there for them... But I've had things like that before & it didn't result in any lack of get-up-and-go... So I wonder, is it because I took a rest and now my brain's saying "More rest please!"? Or is it something to do with once I finish my marketing plan, I'll be editing my ecourse and then sending it out to the public - and the latter will be crunch time? ...
Or, gulp, am I being lazy? Or rebellious? Or continuing my sulk at fiancée but directing it at myself as he's back at work now?
Another thought, three days ago I started back on my usual healthy eating (after a year of very unhelpful eating, which started when my beloved cat died and just continued), so might I be having some sort of 'healing crisis'?
I feel my thoughts beginning to spin now, that's usually not helpful, I wonder if I'm spinning my wheels a bit, and maybe I just need a day off, and it's not helpful to wonder why. I guess if it carries-on tomorrow there might be case for asking why.
I haven't had a session with my business coach for three weeks and had a week-off the mentoring last week, so perhaps this is just an expression of needing some support, and an input of energy from someone else. Argh, I feel a "should" coming on: as an entrepreneur, I should not need motivation inputs from others... LOL, I'm pretty sure I remind my clients of the importance of support and breaks, how interesting that I'm struggling with this lesson.
So, let me know what you thought of this new style of post - ring any bells? Boring and indulgent? Helpful points but didn't enjoy the unedited writing? Or something else?
2 comments:
"Experimental" is engaging! Asking rather than telling is a way to engage an audience whether when writing or speaking to an audience.
As for the question at hand, is it possible to accept what is rather than expect yourself to feel differently? I write this with confidence because I know you are not a slacker! I do believe that, "acceptance is the answer to all my problems today."
One final thought -- you may work 15 hour days for two weeks straight, or take as many days off as you need, and neither one will change who you inherently are. What any other person thinks is "right" does not matter. All that matters is what feels right to you.
Emerging from hibernation...
your friend,
ciarrai
xx
Thank you Ciarri for your comment.
In my world, I feel I need to tread a balance between not endlessly working... and not procrastinating or avoiding things I find difficult.
When you use the phrase "What is" I instantly think of the wonderful Byron Katie. I recently used The Work on two issues of mine... just going through the free downloadable worksheets on her site... and got movement on them both in under an hour. I think I'll do that next time I feel resistance to doing a particular business task - thank you!
Post a Comment